God gave me hope
Updated: Jan 15, 2019
Before I came to know Jesus I was drinking, doing drugs and dealing. I was lost and I felt hopeless.
When I found out I was pregnant with my son, everything for me just felt like it was going downhill. I actually wanted to commit suicide because I didn't have hope or know how to handle the situation. When I gave birth to my son I wanted to put Him up for adoption.
I hated everyone, I hated my mum, I hated my dad who had passed and I hated my siblings.
When I found out my brother got saved, I saw a huge difference in Him. I remember my brother asking me, “What are you doing with your life?” It really made me think, because as a young mum I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what I could offer my son.
Then my brother spoke to me about the love of God and how God’s the father to the fatherless. That hit home for me, because growing up I never had a dad, so I looked at other people or other men for a father figure. I didn't want my son to live like I did without a father, so hearing about God as a father really touched my heart.
Since I gave my life to Christ, God has taken that place of a good father in my life. I have learnt to love my son and God is showing me how to be a mother.
I’m no longer emotionally and spiritually broken. I’m no longer bound by drugs or alcohol. God set me free from addiction and desire for those substances.
Now I've realised that I have a purpose and my life does have value and hope. I am no longer tormented by my past. I have peace, not only in my heart, but in my mind.